It’s almost here, the big day that seemed so far away this time last year. We were getting ready to head to my sister-in-law’s house for three days then. Or even further away the year before, when Simon and I were in the States for Christmas and there was a perfect little 20 day old bundle of Joy waiting to greet us in Atlanta.
This year, though, I’m thinking, again? It’s already Christmas again? I’m not ready. I’m not festive. I just want it to be over and done. I had a burst of Christmas spirit yesterday, when Simon was wrapping our Dunne family presents to send up north tomorrow with Louise. Everyone is getting together up there this year, but because we don’t drive and I have to work Christmas Eve and the day after Christmas Bank Holiday, we can’t go. So it’s going to be me and Simon (and our families via Skype, I hope?) on the big day.
I think part of me has already started looking forward to Christmas next year because it will really feel like Christmas to me…because I’ll be back home. The lighting of the tree at Underground Atlanta. Hopefully going with Joy when she sees Santa and rides the Pink Pig. Sending Daisy off to have Christmas with her Auntie Leah and then going to my folks’ place in the mountains for Christmas Eve/Day. It’s funny how much of that I took for granted until I couldn’t do it anymore, and how incredibly important that ritual has become in its own absence.
But for now, I’ll look for presents to be delivered by the terribly lazy postman who never knocks. I’ll tromp through the snow to the bus stop to get to work. I’ll deal with the customers at work who seem to think it’s open season on Americans just because there’s a bit of extra stress involved in holiday shopping. I’ll watch Simon eat mince pies, and enjoy brussel sprouts at Christmas dinner. I’ll try my best to enjoy what will be my last Christmas in England for a year or so. And on Christmas morning I’ll wake up with my family…Simon, Daisy, and Mills, and be so very thankful I have them.
Merry Christmas, y’all, from all of us here at the Lettuce.