Daisy at Bolton Abbey
Originally uploaded by Nancy Dunne
So it’s been just over a month since I left my husband and critters and returned to the US, and I’d love to tell you that the weird reverse homesickness is gone and life is better than ever.
I’d love to tell you that, but I’d be lying.
For the most part, all of the sensory overload that IS life in America has died down to an acceptable level. I’ve had loads of freelance work, I’ve gotten a fabulous new (to me) car, and we’ve learned that the embassy is now processing petitions for immigrant visas filed just 30 short days prior to when ours was filed.
But there are still moments so awful, so loud, so unbearable that I find myself running into the virtual arms of online travel agencies, desperately searching for a flight to Manchester that I can afford.
While I’m on that topic, if anyone wants to loan me the dosh for a ticket, I wouldn’t turn it down. Moving on…
I’ve had to make some big decisions this weekend about what path my life (and Simon’s, bless him) is going to take here in the US, and I’m not sure that I’ve gotten it right but I think I’m at least facing the right way.
I do, however, desperately miss that little face in the picture up there. I went looking for her a brother this weekend, and thought I’d found the perfect dog, but on careful consideration (and once I’d gotten away from those big brown eyes) I’m not sure he’s a good fit for my family, at least not while 3/4 of it is 4000 miles away.
So that’s where we are so far. I’m here, I’m desperate to see my husband and critters, and I’m taking it one step at a time. How disturbingly grown up of me. When did THAT happen?